Oras, 2:30am. Date, December 18, 2006. Location, Antipolo.
Kahapon yan, madaling araw araw ginising ko si Arnold para samahan ako sa Antipolo. Bakit? Para pakawalan ko ang dalawang pinakamamahal kong mga anak, sila Ruru at Shibby na isang pares ng mga rabbit.
Matagal bago ko nakayanan at napagdesisyunan na pakawalan na talaga sila dahil sa reklamo ng mga leche dito. Oo natural galit ako! Galit na galit ako dahil hindi ninyo alam kung gaano sila kahalaga sa akin. Silang dalawa lang ang nakakaalam lahat ng nangyayari sa akin sa loob ng kwarto ko. For even a short time of seven months nasandalan ko silang dalawa sa lahat ng pagkakataong kailangang kailangan ko ng kausap. Sila ang kausap ko sa tuwing nasa terrace ako at pinapatakbo ko sila. Naririnig nila lahat ng iyak, tawa, wish, galit, lungkot at lahat ng klase ng mga emosyon na naramdaman ko. Tinuring ko silang anak kasi Arnold gave them to me when I promised about us. They were so important to me and now they’re gone. The moment Arnold held them and let them run away from us to the forest my heart fell in zillion of pieces. I couldn’t look at them and I couldn’t believe that we were actually setting them free. I felt so sad. I immediately went into Arnold’s car then shut the door not looking back at that part of the forest. Then Arnold came in, started the car’s engine then slowly went away. I broke in tears. My chest really felt so heavy. I was starting to misss them. Arnold tightly held my hand while he was driving. He knows they are so important to me and what we did was trully against my own will. He then asked me to come close to him so that he can embrace me, so I did and cried as hard as I could. To let all these hard feelings out but I realized I couldn’t do it in just one crying.
I really felt like a child crying for her pets which where taken away from her. It so hard. It so hard to let them go and accept the fact that they’re not really here anymore. I miss them so much. I really really miss them. No other pair of rabbits can replace them in my heart.
Goodbye Ruru and Shibby, I will never forget you.
From, mommy.
Michelle Sinabi:
on Disyembre 19, 2006 at 4:38 umaga
Goodbye Ruru and Shibby, I will never forget you.
From, mommy.